The interview by myself

What was it like to serve as a teacher-aide at G elementary school for one month?

It was awesome and challenge to me in Jesus Christ and I give thanks to the Lord who he is always good and faithful toward me even though giving the great opportunity every day. I served second grade Kid, they are very cute and lovely guys. Now, I felt that this time was really very short and fast. Of course, it wasn’t able to feel among the serving to them even though sometimes it was not easy for me to serve and help that I couldn’t speak English well. Because when I wanted to help them, I couldn’t help them well and sometimes they wanted to talk with me something but I didn’t understand, so we couldn’t communicate a little well. In spite of God taught me about true helping, it also was faith. Through these times, I could see God’s hands that he wanted to lead me in to his faithful work. I praise to the Lord through these times and I became to love our second grade kid.

What did you do in second grade class all day long?

It was a little bit different to do something every day but I usually only stayed in classroom and join in class with kid. Sometimes I taught some kid who they didn’t understand a little bit some class- almost Math- but sometimes, I also wouldn’t understand so, I’ve taught the wrong answer to them. One day, I taught hard one boy who he doesn’t like study and doesn’t have interest in all class, at that time one kid who he has seen me told in whispers to his friend that “Jim, she didn’t understand about it” ^^; And also I fell into a doze off in class, I was very sleepy during some class after we had lunch. Above all, my position was prayer for them. Of course I have known that my work was prayer for them but it cleared to my really position was prayer during served them.

How was the fellowship your class’s teacher?

We had a good time in Jesus. One day I thought to myself that ‘If I were her (a teacher), what do I feel?” During joined them, sometimes I felt that I am just like a stranger in our class and thought that what should I do something for them? Because I couldn’t any help for them even though our class teacher as well as our class teacher also didn’t know that “what can you help for me?” And “how can I help for you?” We didn’t know thing a lot that what should we do for each other? But it didn’t give any problem to each other and we served for each other through the way of each other. It really God has done for us even his glory. I praise to the Lord.

What will you hope through these times?

I hope that I will see His glory in our class children life. Almost our children don’t know about Jesus Christ, of course they studied about the Bible but they are almost the Catholic.
I pray and I will pray for them that they will be know about Jesus Christ who our Passover lamb, has been sacrificed for us. When I served them, one day God said me that you were a priest who carries the Ark of the Covenant, so I trust in my Lord and his promises word. I hope his story and his faithful that always sincerity and truth toward his people.

I give all praise to the Lord who is worthy of the glory.
Thank my Lord, You have done all thing in your grace.

About the obedience and the faith- Rota outreach

1. Things that God has worked to me during Rota Outreach.

Hallelujah! I give thanks to the Lord who has done his glorious work through the Rota outreach.
Though the Rota outreach, I had the great times that I was rebuked and healed all my inmost being that did lose heart in faithful of Jesus Christ.

During the Rota outreach, I was taught about the faith and the obedience even though God did firm about it. I have already known about the faith and the obedience but sometimes it’s not easy in my real life as a Christian, even though as a missionary to live by about it.
After came on Saipan then while I studied English, I have often said that God is possible everything but I am not, I don’t study English. My head is not good, it is impossible! My heart was often downed cast; it gave a pain in my heart and my missionary life. But it was actually true for me to I can’t do something and study English.

One day pastor Tony told to me “Can you stop to say ‘difficult’ and ‘but’?” When I’ve heard I was surprised with ashamed heart. As well as he continuous told me “Joy, someday you will be able to say “English was very easy to me” even though you will be able to teach English to someone. Joy, before you study English, you should pray God who giving the wisdom to you in Jesus Christ.” When I heard his advice and encouragement I wanted to say that “You know? I already have prayed God before I studied English but I couldn’t do it and didn’t have any experience.” And it didn’t become to be encouragement for me to the pastor’s encouragement. “Someday, do I say that English very easy? Am I?” I was not able to agree and get to hope about it. After a few days God mead me think about Abraham’s wife Sarah who she laughed when she was listening to the word of God at the entrance to the tent. It just like God told me that you look like Sarah.

Then the Lord said, “I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son… So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, “After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?” (Ge 18:10,12)

The faith doesn’t start by me; it only starts by the cross of Jesus. The faith is considered God’s faithful who had made the promise. It need to the patient and wait, I must deny myself and take up his cross but I often moved from God’s faithful.

The obedience is not the perfect but I confused that the obedience have to perfect. I never move (obedience) until my mind is satisfied by myself even though other people is satisfied but while I saw that pastor Tony and Sarita’s life, I learn about the obedience.
They stand firm to obedience only through God’s promise word. It was truly obedience toward God.

The faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Heb 11:1)
Without faith it is impossible to please God (Heb 11:6)
By faith Abraham, even though he was past age- and Sarah herself was barren-was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise. (Heb 11:11)

2. My strengths and weakness what I have felt are..
The weather, new situation, meets new people…etc it wasn’t hard for me.
Although I couldn’t speak English well, I could face any situation. I have been hopping to share about my salvation Jesus Christ who he has rescued my soul from the dominion of darkness and the depths of the sad. As well as I have been hopping to be a friend for anybody who they don’t know about Jesus, so I could go near to any situation, any people. I think that it is God’s present for me; it’s my strengths. But also I learned about my strengths is able to become my weaknesses.
Because I discovered that it is able to depend on myself instead of depending on God.
Even I couldn’t be blessed about one body of Jesus Christ that one part is honored; it’s my honored and one part weak, it’s my weak.
When someone who sisters of our team could speak English well even something good well, I couldn’t glad with them even I was passive by myself. It wasn’t faith. All of the times in Rota were just like pass through an X-ray inspection of my faith in Jesus who loved me.

Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves (2Co 13:5)

3. How can I use this experience to better serve the Nations?
A few days from came back on Saipan, when we met the out-reach team of Japan YM DTS at YM Saipan I felt that it clearly became to be a help for me to speak English more grow up through the Rota out-reach. Because I could talk with them a little bit without afraid, of course my English made a lot of mistakes. But I was able to share with some people about God has done grate thing to my life even my missionary life. Definitely Rota outreach became a seed for my life of faith in various ways. I am marching continually in his greatly love toward the day.

Facething God's oppertunity

This Saturday night, I didn’t go to the worship practice at church because it didn’t have any practice for worship but instead of about it we would have to go to church Sunday early morning. This Sunday was YOUTH week. It got to know when we arrived at church. When we arrived at church, there is only one boy in church. He was new face, he would join for drum. He told us that this week the worship team leader was H who she is a youth and praying the electric guitar in worship team. Grace also was called from pastor F for playing the piano because this week we don’t have piano player. After a while pastor F, sister H came in church but they didn’t share anything and moved busily each one. It was not easy a little bit feeling to didn’t any explain and didn’t any guide for us so, I could ask about the this morning worship. We almost didn’t have the worship practice because we would have to wait another helper.
While we waited them I sat on chair next pastor F. We started to talk about pastor B who his wife and his daughter. His wife is on vacation with her family in the U.S. She will come back on Saipan about next Friday.

During with talking about something, we got to talk about large size church of Korea. Pastor F said His grandfather used to visit to Korea, at that time his grandfather went to the church that the church is largest church in Korea and meet pastor Cho. He said that he wants to go to Korea and visit to the largest Korea church some time. After I heard his share, I said him that in Korea have a lot of large church and church but a lot of saints are feeling thirst. Continually I shared about our organization working and when I met Jesus the first time, pray… act- It was really simple English expression. After finish my sharing, pastor F shared his life a short. His father was also pastor and he always busy because work of church when he was young. Sometimes he felt an angry by his family life as a Christian.

During share with pastor, I thought that I have wanted to share with some people about it and it was the opportunity that God permitted. It was very short time even we were not able to finish about our share because it was time to start Sunday worship service. After finished Sunday worship service, I met some foreigner at church even I became to share my Gospel a little bit.

It wasn’t perfect to my sharing about the gospel but I give thanks to the Lord and commit to our God. I didn’t know anything but I just remember that God’s promise that a young girl who servant of Naaman’s wife (2 Kings 5) and the priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the Lord (Jos 3)

Oh, my Lord, Lord, prepare me to be a servant of God. Let me be armed with prayer and the glory of the gospel.

Oh~ lovely guys, my class children.

Oh, lovely guys who I served as a teacher-aide in class children.
I became to love them in Jesus’ loves.
Tonight, I thought about each one of them.

R, He has a gold hair and white skin, he is handsome boy when he laughed, and his laugh sounds make me laugh. Y, Her father is Japanese. She has big eyes and cute face and she write a good penmanship but she always become small-minded in math class. Ma, He is a transfer student from Guam. He has brown skin and curly hair (this is his symbol). He likes Michael Jackson so he has known Jackson’s almost song but he is indifferent to study. So, I often told to him that Ma, you have to study hard! Pay attention~, you can do it, I can help you Ma, but he is indifferent anyway. Mar, He must be put mousse on his hair by his mother every morning. He is always neat; he looks a little Asia gentle boy. He always eat lunch slowly, almost same with me. Ar, He likes snack and eating very much but he don’t know how to share with classmates so, I want him to learn about kind and sharing with classmates.-of course It need to everyone to learn how to share with friends. He often burps loudly without saying excuse. L, she looks not only girlish but also spirited. Her parents always greet L with a kiss of love in front of class. She always asks me that “Can I go for water? Can I…?” when she has lunch time. C, He has tall and big eye. He often says “How about me!!” He always wants to answers the every question in all class time so; some classmates dislike him a little bit. T, he is a Korean. When I joined the first day, he said me “I don’t understand her English”. He is a mischievous boy, lost front teeth of two. When he was smile I can see his face that he doesn’t have front teeth and his eye is close. R, she has a tall and long hair. I didn’t know more about her because I thought that she didn’t except about me so I didn’t make to talk with her. J, He was an also transfer students from Philippine one years ago. As I joined the first day, we have a same thing that we couldn’t speak English well and he almost didn’t speak with classmates. We had the play time of silence together for a few days so I thought that we became a good friend so he likes me. But then after a few days I became to know that it was my illusion to think about it because he was adapted himself to his class. ^^; He gave the milk to me almost every day. H, He is an also Korean. He is too small and is very cute but sometimes he spoke to me the bed word and he didn’t pay attention in his class. He is him who one day said me “Am I your dictionary? Why do you ask everything to me?” -.-“ J, He also very cute as well as he has a circle face and circle eye. He is very smart. Last Friday, He became to be winner about phonic speed game in his class. When he got to win about speed game he prayed and after he passed his hand across his forehead I got to know that he is a Catholic. During the last week we studied about Moses who was called from God in bible class time after bible time, a few children started to pray but they were the Catholic. Mt, He looks very health but his voice is very cutely more than his body. He always sat in front of my desk, I call him health boy. He is a nice guy but sometimes danced strange dance when he has a mind full of joy; for example, He was chosen when he rise up hand for a reply that teacher’s questions in class time, his group get a good point. It was really strange dance (sexy dance) I talked him that It was not good. Teacher, she has brown long hair and she was from Minnesota. She is a star to most school children. When most children meet her, they run toward her and gave her a hug. Her class is like a children meeting place because after finished class another grade children come and visit her class. ^^; Sometimes I could talk with her but couldn’t talk a lot or deeply. It gave to feel a sense of loss to me but God lead me God’s perfect plan so that I commit every situation, people, time even myself to God.

Therefore I never move from God’s promise words and his faithful. So, God has made me think that I will not be able to see that God has done great thing for this time therefore I will have to live by only faith.

An unexpexted thing.

On Saturday toward 5 o’clock I was thinking that I would prepare to go to church for practice of the worship team. I met Sarah when I went to the kitchen for I eat some food before going to the church. Sarah told me that Miss L called her and then tonight they have no practice worship dance as well as her though that I should call pastor F.
“It was?” So, I borrowed cell phone to Joseph, I went to Joyful room for was gotten the phone number of pastor F- ‘would we have meeting tonight?’ It also took me about few minute to think for called to pastor F.

I called pastor F and he said that he didn’t know about it so, if we didn’t have practice time, we would meet tomorrow early morning but he would check about it after call me. Toward 6 o’clock, until this time didn’t call from pastor F, I thought that maybe it didn’t have to practice tonight.
So, I should have thought that “what will do me?” but for a little while- already passed 6 o’clock- pastor F called me, he said we had practice tonight. I’ve gone to church for worship team practice without Sarah.

I arrived the church I met Pastor F and another saints, pastor F said that he also thought that tonight don’t have practice so, he had another plan. Finally, we started the worship practice almost same time as usual – It is 6 o’clock every Saturday but we always started almost at 7 o’clock. The singers change every week but I don’t know how them change singers every week.
I would like to practice and pray enough – especially I have not known songs- but they look a little bit busy.

Next day, on Sunday morning we went to the church. When I joined worship team for Sunday worship service, leader of team asked the opening prayer very carefully, even him told that you could speak prayer in Korea. For a few minute, I was embarrassed a little bit in the worship team because I haven’t think about it until this time but after a few minute I prayed for very short time in English -I couldn’t think anything; I had a blank in my head.

During the worship time I became to think about it- an unexpected thing. Finally, I thought that always have to be prepared an unexpected thing for my Lord Jesus Christ. It isn’t meaning that I want to speak well in English in front of some people. I will be never embarrassed an unexpected thing in Jesus’ love.
How do I prepare for an unexpected thing in my Lord Jesus Christ? What will do I prepare?

Then God led me in this verse, Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be-self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed 1Pe1:13

Stand firm in the word of God!

The priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the Lord stood firm on dry ground in the middle of the Jordan, which all Israel passed by until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground (Jos 3:17)

Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not vain. (1Co 15:58)

Time fries. How fast week it was!
I can’t remember about this week. It was so fast!
It was just like three days for me to be this week.
I clearly started this week in the grace of the God’s promise word but after started this week I have forgotten the God’s promise word.
(but I’m not sure that did I really forget the God’s word?)
In the middle of the week it came in to my think that how come I can’t speak English as time goes on?

I don’t want to write about my feeling at my blogger but when I thought about this week, I couldn’t think another something even I couldn’t express another thing.
I got to think about How come my heart had almost slipped?
What was the problem?

I have received the grace of God through the massage and the word of God meditation everyday but I didn’t have the time for preparation and prayer in the concrete. I was too lazy. (It is mountain for me to have to go over. = I have to obey about it.)
Of course I was able to rise from the loss of heart as soon as and was woken up in my heart through the word of God! (“until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground! The priests had to stand firm in the middle of the Jordan”)
Until when do I have to stand firm? It is an unbecoming for question as a Christian.

After I was clear minded, I got to have a short time to serve our class children and teacher.
I have to keep going toward the word of God and I will pray for this time more and more in the concrete.

O, Lord, let me praise your mercy and faithful all day long.
Let me stand firm on your promise word all day long.
O, Lord, teach me that something to obey in the concrete.
Let me hold firm your promise word until the day that complete your perfect plan.
In Jesus name I pray. A-men.

One thing that I have to do...

I hoped one thing that became to the praise the Lord through the English gospel song like Korean gospel song when I served as a worship team. Even though I hoped that life of Jesus Christ would be flowing away into our church saints’ lives through our joining with them more and more. Because I am buys reading the English lyrics when I was practicing the worship and worshiping. It became my prayer and I was sure that God is really doing now!

We usually have practice from P.M 6 to almost P.M 8 every Saturday but it was too difference to come on to church each other. We started the practice after short prayer and they had gone quickly after practicing, sometime without saying bye. I thought that is it the local culture?
Then I have practice that found and listen to this week worship song by myself at home about for a two or three hours. Because I resolved to practice the worship song after served the worship on last week. (I discovered that I have never tried to do myself best everything for perfect. (The perfect is only for the glory of God.)

Yesterday during the Sunday worship service pastor proclaimed just powerful preaching toward church. I remain could not understand about the almost preaching but I was able to hear the important word that just need to me by God’s mercy. It was really proclaiming of God.
When I am among the great grace of God, suddenly pastor asked that came on the worship and came on ones who wanted praying in front of the pastor. Then pastor and some people started the praying and we sang to the Lord. The praying and singing were continued. I prayed that let me praise the Lord with all my heart and let the glory of the Lord flows from my heart when I was singing. Then I was able to praise to the Lord irrespective of the English in grace of Jesus.

God has made me think about a young girl who servant of Naaman’s wife (2 Kings 5) when I went to evening worship service. The young girl who taken captive from Israel was not known about her name but she was used for the history of God.

God has made me think that we joined in G are like the young girl so One thing that I have to do is just worshiping God like young girl of Israel in G.

God's permission is the best!

I praise the Lord who remain faithful toward us even though we are faithless.

Today is on Thursday, Aug 6.

It pass away four days to serve GCA elementary school as a helper. Hallelujah!!
God has done! God will continually do it! A-men!

It became a good news for me to don't go to school tomorrow for WMM special meeting. Hu~
(-Of course, I got to love all of our class childern and our class teacher. They are really lovely, so it was a pity that I don't meet them at school tomorrow.)

It was like very long time that four days.
Our second children is very bright! There are two Korean childern and two transfer students who come from Philippine and come from Guam and the rest of the students were GCA students. I became to hope about them who two Korean children and two transfer students when I got to know them Becaues I thought that they were able to help and wait me. :)
So, I said unreserved H who one among a them that you could be a teacher for me, you had to help me because you were Korean even me also Korean and you looked kind. l0l
But after a fwe time, I realized that I don't have to another hope toward children and teacher even any situation.

For a few days, I felt that was a tired too much by both my body and my soul.
I was discouraged about those who our class childern and teacher too small reaction and I felt about a English barrier. It was like it to meet another high mountain of English.
I've talked and thought about I will trust in my Lord! so I will pray for every circumstances but
I was talking about our class's any circumstances even I was thinking that if I served a kindergarten, If.... If... even though it looked well for them who our WSA families.
I couldn't give thanks to the Lord about everything, I was a very tired. -.-"

God who remain faithful and never give up toward us reminded me that God's permission is the best throughout four days. I have to only love and serve them who our class children and teacher in grace of God without reference to my English grade.
Therefore I think that 'what can I help for them today?' even though 'how do God wants me to serve for them? '

I confess to myself that God's permission is the best! It's enough because it is God's permission. I hope that finally God will has done grace thing. A-men.

If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for hecannot disown himself. 2Ti 4:13

I will be looking forward!!!!

I praise the Lord who is always giving the oppertunity of God's grace to me through the Cross.

I once again realized that I have been living in our God's prefect grace and although I can't recount God's planned for me through all of the times in WSA. Praise the Lord!!

I was scared a litter bit when missionary Park who our WSA team leader left Saipan a few days ago night because she got me to strength for a long time in the Lord.

Of course I know that surely God will do great things for the glory of the Lord through us who praise the glory of the Gospel so I was quickly able to get up from the scare.

Now It's again to start to this semester in God's grace and I looking forward that God will do amazing things for this semester.

God said to me that Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever(ps118:1) through the Bible.
God wants me not to forget that God loves endures forever toward us! and I have to always give thanks to the Lord among the every circumstance. Hallelujah!!
(Anyway!! Oh~ I have to wirte about I served Grace church worship service!!)

Yes! I got to serve as a worshipper of Grace church with Sarah.
We went to Grace church last night for practice of worship service.
I was looking forward too much to join with them for worship to God and serve the church even though I can speak English litter bit. ^^;(but I can sing to the Lord in English! Praise the Lord!)

Saturday 6 p.m, I was able to a few singer and musicians.
It was different that I hoped for something but It was thanksful time to me.
It's not specially to meet them the first time because we almost didn't glad to each other.
I imagined that actually there is something specially time(?)(e.g introduce myself or greeting time) but we exchanged a light greetings each other and we started the practice about worship song.

While I practiced the worship song I got to think about the time that we were practicing the English phonice. I was not able to sing with fluency because It's very fast song to me but I was able to be a pronounce correctly. lol~~~~~~~
Thoes who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy(ps 126:5) a-men!

And then, Today I had a great time through everytime that worship service of Grace church.