chart 13, Greatset mystery

There are a lot of mysteries in the World. People who live in the world admire the mysteries
of nature that they see and hear. They even worship nature and they aren't aware
of the fountain of Truth.

Everything in nature expresses God's creation. We can see the colors in everything. How beautiful are the harmony of colors! We can see the glare of the wild ocean. I also think the confusion allowed by God. It expresses the mystery in Truth.

The people who live in the world see everything God has made, but they don't have grateful hearts. Our impure hearts were made to not realize anything even our errors. Of course, I also didn't realize the Truth nor did give thanks to God. But now I have found the greatest beauty and mystery. Great mystery is people who God has made.

And then greatest and beauty mystery is just Jesus Christ, the son of the might God.

chart 12- the dream

I went up the stairs, but I didn't know where it was or why I was here but I had to walk up the stairs continually without wearing shoes. When I looked below the way I passed, everything disappeared.

A moment after wards, I entered a path of beautiful bushes. There were lots of beautiful birds, beautiful flowers and theirs happy tweeting. All parrots sang like this, "Keep going!" "Praise the Lord continually!" "Don't lose hope!" What they shouted made me think it was importan to write what they said down on my wrist. It was very happy for me to walk.

When I continued to walk, suddenly beautiful path disappeared and I was walking through on
a rough ground. There were enclosed by thorns and darkness. I was able to move because
I felt that something was bound my feet. My feet were scraped and so was my body. I felt severe loneness and pain, I was getting nervous. My heart filled up with wrath and I was
tired. I lost hope. I couldn't understand that why I was here. I shouted out to myself that I only wanted to walk beautiful path, I don't like to walk this path! I knew that I had to praise to the Lord in the midst of any circumstances but it was not easy. I desired to praise to the Lord….

Finally I decided to praise to the Lord, as soon as the shackles on feet set free and I was standing the glary light. At that time someone called my name! "Joy!!"…..

"Joy wake up!" my cute cousin Ha Eun awoke me smiling face. It was just a dream.

"I will always praise my Lord, Jesus Christ! Oh, Lord! Let me praise you in any circumstances and on a rough path, protect my heart until You will return soon!"

The circus

I used to watch the circus on TV when I was young. Sometimes there appeared some animals for feat.

The lion, the king of all animals, showed a feat of rings. After finishing the feat, circus's master gave the lion some raw meat. The monkeys spun lots of saucers very quickly and they brought some cookies following the master's order. The heavy elephants caught the hugs ball.

They were broken by people, maybe people beat very often, they had to enter the cage, as soon as the circus ended. And then they ached all over.

After I met Jesus Christ; I realized that God doesn't like this. When I think about "creation's groans" for our sins, my heart is very sad.

Thanks giving day.

Mr. kim and two brothers were broiling turkey for Thanks giving day. Everyone was thrilled with joy because it was the first time to have hanks giving day all together. Eunice decorated the hallway in the house with curled ribbons and Grace lit the candles brightly.

At that time Joy and shalom were taking about something in the kitchen. Joy said, “Shalom, do not put a lot of soy sauce. It’s special day.” Shalom said “Don’t worry, I already knew that I’m going to put three spoons of soy sauce.” Joy said “I’ll trust you, let me just mix the flour slowly, the Lord will do it through us” Becky was chalking a message on the wall and she chalked, “Jesus is worth dying for.”

At night, there town was calm. Judy said “Every one come and let’s start!”
They gathered and praised the Lord, they thanks God and prayer to stand firm on His grace.

The frequently used English words used 95.
There is 95 words that used frequntly English words in my composition.

I will be prepared for next Saturday.

This Saturday, we also did the practice for worship. When I arrived, there are our worship teams even with new member that he is playing the guitar in Sanctuary. He is H’s who the youth of our teams and she also the guitar player father. ‘Why doesn’t brother G who he has served as the guitar player for a short time come in this practice without any comment?’ I thought to myself.

I hoped that he who H’s father will join as a worshiper for a long time. This week the practice song was a little bit hard to me even I thought that how come is it hard to pronounce the English word after we practiced to pronounce the English word more and more? When I sang the worship song, my pronunciation was very confusion.

After we finished our worship practice, our team leader pastor B talked about next Saturday. She told us that our worship team, everyone would have time for fellowship next Saturday. When I’ve heard about it, I thought that is it chance to give the Lord? Anyway, I didn’t imagine about any situation next Saturday but my heart was full with expectation. I wanted to prepare about next Saturday even I must prepare about the Day. ^^;


I’ve often missed the good opportunity to share with some foreigner because of my poor English and my unprepared heart. As I am learning English more and more, I discovered that it some strange about my English level because when I meet some people, I almost didn’t talk with them, I can’t adapt and remember any English grammar. So, I don’t want to miss the good opportunity to giving from God. How do I prepare about next Saturday?
First of all I am able to pray for the day and I am able to write about my story even I will have to memorize about it.
Can you guess what will happen something next Saterday?

About my Calling

I watched that “A Cry from Iran” in class this week. I’ve wanted to watch about it for a long time. I got to know this movie when I served at Gang-ju Intercessory prayer school. At that time, I’ve heard concretely about persecution churches in the world, after I’ve known about it, I grew to pray for persecution churches. It made me be eagerly. Even though when I’ve read the book ‘Light Force’, my heart had the shock and to be eagerly more and more toward God’s lovely saints who is persecuted from heathen. ‘A Cry from Iran’ made me think about God’s Calling and the people who gave the forgiveness through the cross.

I had thinks a lot of things about God’s kingdom and my life. I thought that "what is difference, persecuted Christian and normal Christian?" "How do I live for the glorious day as a person who gave the forgiveness?" I really want to live in no way be ashamed before the Lord, my savior but I don’t know about the persecution in my life, now. I have perfect free as a believer. “Oh, Lord, I don’t know fear of persecution.” I felt that my life very normal more than persecution Christian.

But as soon as God made me think about His calling toward me and His perfect body.
It seemed that God told to me this like that “Joy, you are my servant and just I called you. It enough! Do you want to live in no way be ashamed before me? Well, you must be sincerity to your position before Me. It is just your works.”

I am the body of Christ and a part of God’s body (1 Co 12:27) and God arranged me in His body, just as he wanted me to be (1 Co 12:18). It is just World Mobile Missionary.
Even when I read the book- Light Force, I also felt about it. Because persecution Christian was very strong and faithful in the Lord, of course they always need to help from in the world churches even them very weak in themselves. At that time also God mead my mind be refresh in His calling. “Is your heart eagerly toward persecution Christian? Well, Use your life for helping oppressed even as a voice of God’s kingdom.”

I am a World Mobil Missionary; I will have to be prepared God’s day through the Gospel and Pray, finally through the Cross. It is my calling as a God’s body. When I am sincerity before the Lord God will complete His glorious work through His body end I will meet His beautiful servants in heaven soon. So, I have to study hard even practice pronunciation hard too as a God’s body, and I pray for our body and the Day.

I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. Php 1:2

This is our confession.

This week was also very busy because of we’ve made special time with Miss K, M, H who they are a teachers that we served as a class- aids at G elementary school last month in our house.

So we prepared some food and these times for the visitor. I made chicken boiled in soy, it was just first time to make so, it took me a long time to cook lunch. But God led me to pray for these times and them about three times so, I prayed for about it because I have no idea for our special meeting even I’ve wanted to have good time in Jesus Christ but I thought that I can’t express my heart and my thought in English very well, so How can I even we do for them and these times? I became a little bit worry about it. At that time God made me to think about to pray!
I’ve thought that I couldn’t anything for these times so, I was able to pray so eagerly.
God has done his great things through the prayer. During preparing for lunch I was able to see God’s led us by His hands. It was very exciting to feel to His leading us into His grace ways.
So we had very good time in Jesus, we gave thanks to the Lord all together through these times.

And then I had to go to church for the worship practicing until P.M 6 o’clock but I thought that it is so early to go to church because most of worshipers were late so I had to wait them until they came in church. So finally I decided that I would go to the church a little bit late and then I went to the church a little bit late. But when I arrived at church with light heart, there were all of worship team in church even they were waiting me. ‘Wow~ what happened!!!’

As soon as I was discovered to Pastor B of ore team leader, she was a short greeting this like “Hi~ miss Joy” and then she stood up for starting the practice. It was not easy to sing to first song because it was so fast and it has a lot sentence even though she asked me to sing the high tone. Although I had to sing high tone but I shouted to myself “It’s not my voice~~”

Wow~~~ Almost worship songs of this week was very hard so after finished practicing, I had to practice more and more in our home. When I practiced worship song in my room, I was able to realize about the worship theme of this week even to feel that her who our worship team leader was shouting toward the Lord. She was confessing this like that my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name when I’m laughing even when I’m grieving, still I will say that we’re going to serve the Lord- It is the song’s sentence.

Though it was difficult to sing but these songs were confession so beautiful toward our God.
Maybe she seemed to have some prayer requests even I knew that her mother was in the hospital now, so she asked us to pray for her mom. I couldn’t understand some expressions that why her mom had to go into hospital. It confessed her heart toward God even it became to confess for me. We must to worship to God all day long. I became to hope that God will do great things more and more. I will pray for God’s people whom whenever they confess to choose to say that Lord, l blessed be your name even me.

Our teacher is a conductor.

I have been feeling that this week was also so fast.
From I arrived on Saipan, I have been feeling that the time passed so fast.
I’ve thought that this week would be some special week because it just became to start the second term to this week. ^^; Yah, this week was so special because my teacher became a conductor.

We had time that phonic practicing during this week. Wow~ it was very hard because my tongue has became hard as a stone even my lip got a wound so it was so hurt when I practiced about it.
“Why has my tongue become hard?” Sometimes I couldn’t understand that how do my tongue do? When we were learned about the pronunciation from our teacher miss Judy, She shouted to us that complete sentence! Complete pronunciation!!! Flowing!!! And then she started to conduct us, we were like an orchestra. When I found that her gesture, my tongue was very busy and a little bit painful but she has conducted toward us with a smile and light hands as a feather but the orchestra wasn’t tuning yet.

This week, my teacher’s conduct was memorable things to me.
Her conduct felt softly but very strong. I want to be orchestra member for the glory of the Lord and the day. I really want to share my good news with another people but it felt not easy as time go on. It is like to stand in front of big mountain. I know that it is just feeling, I have to choose the faith. Yes, Lord!

God has made me continually to remember that to obey is better than sacrifice.The obedience is not the meaning to be perfect or well it trust in Him and to offer up myself according to the word of God. I want to be faithful toward my Lord more and more like Him but I know the cross.

Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or the left, that may be successful wherever you go. (Joshua 1:7)

Teach me your way, O Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence. I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord! Ps 27:11-14

As I end six months.

My son, do not forget my teaching but keep my commands in your heart Ps 3:1

I remember when I heard that I would go to Saipan for studying English. When I heard this news, I was surprised that “What happen to me?” This news gave in my heart the expectation and the glad toward newness but also the confusion and a little bit worry that “can I study English well? And what does God want me? I don’t understand God’s calling yet.” But God has made me to expect God’s grace plans even God gave his promise words;

Ezra 1:3, 4
Anyone of his people among you- may his God be with him and let him go up to Jerusalem in Judah and build the temple of the Lord, the God of Israel, the God who is in Jerusalem. And the people of any place where survivors may now be living are to provide him with silver and gold, with goods and livestock, and with freewill offerings foe the temple of God in Jerusalem.

God has made me to meditate that it was building the temple of the Lord to go on Saipan and study English so, God promised me to fill every things to build the temple of the Lord; wisdom, money , daily bread, strength… even life because it works of God for the glory of God.
The Lord moved the heart of me through these verses but sometimes I’ve distrusted that were it really my promise words?

The life of Saipan has begun even study English too and then it was very fresh experiences and fun time. We have received a lot of God’s gifts through God’s people who serve God and live on Saipan; GNC’s saints, G*A…- they have been giving the love, the encouragements and the prayer to us.

But it was not easy for me to study English and be Saipan’s new life-WSA course especially it was driven to discourage for me to catch up English study that without the basis of English study by myself. So, I couldn’t concentrate my mind but we have had worship times and prayer times almost every day and then God has always talked me that just trust Him and wait His perfect plan in His faithful through His word and every situation. I have heard that God’s words but it wasn’t reality in my life and in my thinks because I felt that my English grade and my life of faith didn’t grow up even I also didn’t expect about it .

Then I compared with my brothers and I felt envy of them by myself. It made me so tired. I praised the Lord and read the Bible every day even I am a World Mobile Missionary who is called by God for the serving and the unity of the reviver of God’s kingdom and the completion of great commission. Even I’ve preached and confessed that God is possible every things He didn’t know impossible but it became the pain to myself because I distrusted about His almighty even this verse that everything is possible for Him who believes(Ma 9:23).

The times of Saipan were not only very beautiful, joyful end thankful but also the confusion more and more. After all it was great times to be examine on my life of faith that “Was it reality to be my preaching and my confession even my Gospel for me?”

Finally God has done His perfect works through these six months in Saipan even Rota Out-reach. My sins haven’t keep God’s promise words in my heart among every time, every situation. I’ve chosen me who like foolish-phenomenon- as a reality more than the truth.

Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom, prisoners suffering in iron chains, for they had rebelled against the word of God and despised the counsel of the Most High. Ps 107:10, 11

A-men!! When I haven’t kept the word of God as a reality in my life, when I haven’t believed just my Lord, Jesus on the cross, my life could not do nothing but confusing and the deepest.

I realized that these times was like fail to me but God used as a God’s consuming fire to my heart even God is continually doing His great works in His unfailing love.
Even I’ve realized while I was writing this essay that I have forgotten God’s promise; Ezra 1:3, 4 but God has accomplished His promise for Himself- in spite of my distrust; Is it really my promise words? It was very surprised!!

God gave grace opportunity; we became to stay on Saipan for second term of WSA once again.

“What does God want me to do during second term of WSA?”
“Why does He allow these times to me?”

Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Pr 3:3

I and we will have to run to be The Day through English on Saipan for the reviver of God’s kingdom and the completion of great commission.

Oh, Lord, keep watch over my heart by your great word for Your glory until The Day.

Dear. our leader of the worship team

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. (Ps 4:23)

Dear, Pastor B.
Hi, pastor B. This is Joy.
I’m sure that God will be done His grace works through your obedience- this week's sermon for His loving the church. Hallelujah!

Pastor, I just felt to write to you in God’s grace because I thought to say “I’m so sorry” even my Lord, Jesus. Before I wrote this litter, I repented of my not good heart to my Lord, Jesus. I finished some sharing with you. I felt the shame heart in Jesus Christ because tonight I didn’t guard my heart when our worship practicing time even I acted on my not good feeling. It wasn’t like a Christian. I realized too late that it was just God’s permission toward me. I’ve already known that I must praise to the Lord all day long when my heart is full of glad(joy) and my heart is full of sad even I can’t understand God’s plan, works. I’ve often confessed that oh, Lord I can praise you all day long even when I meet not good situations that can’t praise you. So today God wants me to teach (rebukes) that my thinks and act not came from faith- I didn’t keep my heart from willful sins.

So I want to share with you who the leader of our worship team even God wants me to share with about my haughty spirit. It was not problems of difference of culture it was just the problem of my hearts.

You know, when I became to serve as a worshiper of Grace church, God taught about my calling-it is God’s promise words. God called me as a servant who Naman’s wife (2Kings5) and the priest who carried the ark of the convent of the Lord (Joshua 3).
I’m just servant of my Lord; God. I just have to stand firm God’s grace promises.
Oh, pastor, God has done that His great things in our life every time even tonight though we are faithless. I hope that God will do great things through the serving the worship team.

Could you pray for me? I’m sure that you will pray for me and God’s church.
I often forget things that God taught to me, so tonight happening also I have to take it in my heart. I also thanks for your hearing about my thinks. Tonight you were asking me to be sharing also God used for God's great things. Thanks you in Jesus.

I will stand firm God’s grace during serving the church also until the day that Jesus who our savior coming soon with you and His church.
I love you and your lovely family (especially your cute daughter^^ even our sister’s with)
Thank you and I will pray for you and your family for the glory of God in His grace.

See you soon in His rejoice of salvation.
In Jesus Christ, Joy of God^^:

My first week; second term of WSA

Well, I know that your WSA class started this week how was your first week class?

Yes, this week started WSA second term in His grace and just after finished the serving as class-aids, it was good. On Monday when started class the first time I was a little bit shaking with emotion because the thought came to my mind that the really first class of WSA.
I could remember the first class, after finished first class of WSA’s first day; I was scared more and more about English study because when the first class, our teacher Miss Judy spoke in only English all every time. While I heard about the introduction of WSA, I thought to myself that “what happen? Why does she speak in only English? Does she know about our English grade?”
And then I told to her that I was surprised because you spoke in only English, I didn’t understand everything. At that time Miss Judy who heard my opinion also seemed to be surprised.
After passed about six months on Saipan and then as the start again WSA of second term, we changed a lot of things. God has done a lot of things in our life during the six months.
I still speak in poor English but my English grow up a lot more than before six months.
(It took me a long time to write blog.-.-“)

So, what did you do in your class this week?
We learned about Note taking so, we started Note taking during this week.
Oh, sometimes we watched some movies in class, it was fun and emotion even challenging

What did you receive the promise word for second term of WSA?
The promise word of Second term, first of all I took as the September’s promise word that John 15:4 Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

God has made me continually to remember that the servant of Naaman’s wife and the priest who carried the ark of the convent of the Lord. Maybe I will remember these people during second term of WSA.
And then during passed first week, I was able to remember that the promise word that I received forms God when I would come on Saipan. Ezra 1:3,4 For a long time, I’ve forgot this promise word. The first term of WSA, sometimes I’ve lost my way.
When I remembered these promise words, I realized about the reason that I was able to lose my way. I have to hold God’s promise word in every situation of during second WSA.

What do you want to pray for you?
I often lose my way in any situation; this week also I shook by myself.
I always make effort to do grace things (to pray, to do good thing…) but it sometimes makes me to be tired because I lose something and it just make effort by myself.
So, I want to pay attention only His grace and rest in His grace.
Be still, and know that I am God. (Ps 46:10) I want to experience this God’s word.
Even I must not to despair of my every time I have to hope His grace work and wait for my Lord. I want to my life is orderly way, Pray for me in Jesus.

She came back.

This week also I went to the church for practice worship.
First of all, I want to express about our every Saturday. ^^;
On Saturday early morning we prayed with the word of God and then we start cleaning in the kitchen all together. After finished kitchen cleaning, we continually clean our room and bathroom each one, even our car-but recently we didn't clean our car- also we do the laundry duty through duty for laundry every Saturday. This week I and Shalom was laundry duty.
After finished these works, I think that "My Saturday passed"

anyway.
And then, after a few hour I went to the church for practice the worship song -recently I went to the church by driving our car. When I arrived the church, I heard that someone called kid and then I saw Azzy(I don't know her name's spell) who pastor F's daughter. "Oh! at long last they came back!" they were just pastor F's wife and his daughter. They went on vacation for about three weeks, I have been missing them because his daughter is so cute!!!
Azzy grew up a lot for one month. She looks like K(kindergarten) 4, 5 student. She has big eye just like her father, She almost same her father.

Before the practice, I talked with pastor B who maybe she is a worship leader of team for a short time. She asked me something that how was our life. For example "How long will it take you to stay on Saipan more?" So, I shared about we served as a class-aids at GCA elementary school for one month. She encouraged us that we learned English very fast. We talked for a very short time but I enjoyed this conversation very much. She told to me that thanks for your team’s serving and then we started practice the worship song. The singer was just me alone.
The practice was a little bit difference as compared with some day. It felt some power trough the meeting. It has not any different except she came back.

After finished our practice we had time for prayer a short time, it was also a little bit different because she heard about some prayer requests and she prayed for about them and then she exchanged greeting with us. She told me and Sarah that Joy and Sarah, thank you for you’re joining with us- I couldn’t remember well that what she said exactly to us.
“Oh, she came back!”
I felt some change in our team, but it just one month to serve the worship team so; I know that it was too early to say to a conclusion. But it gave some glad to me but I never expected some person. I only hope our Lord, Jesus Christ who he reign everything, continually.

When this Sunday worships service, I could worship God with all my heart through in English songs. These songs were a little bit easy because it was already sung through last our class’s morning worship time- Mighty to save, Friend of God, Eagle’s wings.. etc.

Recently, I am learning to obey that step by step, small thing.
I will continually walk toward the glory of God(the day)through obedience to God’s plan, step by step. It also belong the faith walk to serve the worship team at church.
So, I only hope my Lord, Jesus Christ who began a good work in us.

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6

The interview by myself

What was it like to serve as a teacher-aide at G elementary school for one month?

It was awesome and challenge to me in Jesus Christ and I give thanks to the Lord who he is always good and faithful toward me even though giving the great opportunity every day. I served second grade Kid, they are very cute and lovely guys. Now, I felt that this time was really very short and fast. Of course, it wasn’t able to feel among the serving to them even though sometimes it was not easy for me to serve and help that I couldn’t speak English well. Because when I wanted to help them, I couldn’t help them well and sometimes they wanted to talk with me something but I didn’t understand, so we couldn’t communicate a little well. In spite of God taught me about true helping, it also was faith. Through these times, I could see God’s hands that he wanted to lead me in to his faithful work. I praise to the Lord through these times and I became to love our second grade kid.

What did you do in second grade class all day long?

It was a little bit different to do something every day but I usually only stayed in classroom and join in class with kid. Sometimes I taught some kid who they didn’t understand a little bit some class- almost Math- but sometimes, I also wouldn’t understand so, I’ve taught the wrong answer to them. One day, I taught hard one boy who he doesn’t like study and doesn’t have interest in all class, at that time one kid who he has seen me told in whispers to his friend that “Jim, she didn’t understand about it” ^^; And also I fell into a doze off in class, I was very sleepy during some class after we had lunch. Above all, my position was prayer for them. Of course I have known that my work was prayer for them but it cleared to my really position was prayer during served them.

How was the fellowship your class’s teacher?

We had a good time in Jesus. One day I thought to myself that ‘If I were her (a teacher), what do I feel?” During joined them, sometimes I felt that I am just like a stranger in our class and thought that what should I do something for them? Because I couldn’t any help for them even though our class teacher as well as our class teacher also didn’t know that “what can you help for me?” And “how can I help for you?” We didn’t know thing a lot that what should we do for each other? But it didn’t give any problem to each other and we served for each other through the way of each other. It really God has done for us even his glory. I praise to the Lord.

What will you hope through these times?

I hope that I will see His glory in our class children life. Almost our children don’t know about Jesus Christ, of course they studied about the Bible but they are almost the Catholic.
I pray and I will pray for them that they will be know about Jesus Christ who our Passover lamb, has been sacrificed for us. When I served them, one day God said me that you were a priest who carries the Ark of the Covenant, so I trust in my Lord and his promises word. I hope his story and his faithful that always sincerity and truth toward his people.

I give all praise to the Lord who is worthy of the glory.
Thank my Lord, You have done all thing in your grace.

About the obedience and the faith- Rota outreach

1. Things that God has worked to me during Rota Outreach.

Hallelujah! I give thanks to the Lord who has done his glorious work through the Rota outreach.
Though the Rota outreach, I had the great times that I was rebuked and healed all my inmost being that did lose heart in faithful of Jesus Christ.

During the Rota outreach, I was taught about the faith and the obedience even though God did firm about it. I have already known about the faith and the obedience but sometimes it’s not easy in my real life as a Christian, even though as a missionary to live by about it.
After came on Saipan then while I studied English, I have often said that God is possible everything but I am not, I don’t study English. My head is not good, it is impossible! My heart was often downed cast; it gave a pain in my heart and my missionary life. But it was actually true for me to I can’t do something and study English.

One day pastor Tony told to me “Can you stop to say ‘difficult’ and ‘but’?” When I’ve heard I was surprised with ashamed heart. As well as he continuous told me “Joy, someday you will be able to say “English was very easy to me” even though you will be able to teach English to someone. Joy, before you study English, you should pray God who giving the wisdom to you in Jesus Christ.” When I heard his advice and encouragement I wanted to say that “You know? I already have prayed God before I studied English but I couldn’t do it and didn’t have any experience.” And it didn’t become to be encouragement for me to the pastor’s encouragement. “Someday, do I say that English very easy? Am I?” I was not able to agree and get to hope about it. After a few days God mead me think about Abraham’s wife Sarah who she laughed when she was listening to the word of God at the entrance to the tent. It just like God told me that you look like Sarah.

Then the Lord said, “I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son… So Sarah laughed to herself as she thought, “After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?” (Ge 18:10,12)

The faith doesn’t start by me; it only starts by the cross of Jesus. The faith is considered God’s faithful who had made the promise. It need to the patient and wait, I must deny myself and take up his cross but I often moved from God’s faithful.

The obedience is not the perfect but I confused that the obedience have to perfect. I never move (obedience) until my mind is satisfied by myself even though other people is satisfied but while I saw that pastor Tony and Sarita’s life, I learn about the obedience.
They stand firm to obedience only through God’s promise word. It was truly obedience toward God.

The faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Heb 11:1)
Without faith it is impossible to please God (Heb 11:6)
By faith Abraham, even though he was past age- and Sarah herself was barren-was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise. (Heb 11:11)

2. My strengths and weakness what I have felt are..
The weather, new situation, meets new people…etc it wasn’t hard for me.
Although I couldn’t speak English well, I could face any situation. I have been hopping to share about my salvation Jesus Christ who he has rescued my soul from the dominion of darkness and the depths of the sad. As well as I have been hopping to be a friend for anybody who they don’t know about Jesus, so I could go near to any situation, any people. I think that it is God’s present for me; it’s my strengths. But also I learned about my strengths is able to become my weaknesses.
Because I discovered that it is able to depend on myself instead of depending on God.
Even I couldn’t be blessed about one body of Jesus Christ that one part is honored; it’s my honored and one part weak, it’s my weak.
When someone who sisters of our team could speak English well even something good well, I couldn’t glad with them even I was passive by myself. It wasn’t faith. All of the times in Rota were just like pass through an X-ray inspection of my faith in Jesus who loved me.

Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves (2Co 13:5)

3. How can I use this experience to better serve the Nations?
A few days from came back on Saipan, when we met the out-reach team of Japan YM DTS at YM Saipan I felt that it clearly became to be a help for me to speak English more grow up through the Rota out-reach. Because I could talk with them a little bit without afraid, of course my English made a lot of mistakes. But I was able to share with some people about God has done grate thing to my life even my missionary life. Definitely Rota outreach became a seed for my life of faith in various ways. I am marching continually in his greatly love toward the day.

Facething God's oppertunity

This Saturday night, I didn’t go to the worship practice at church because it didn’t have any practice for worship but instead of about it we would have to go to church Sunday early morning. This Sunday was YOUTH week. It got to know when we arrived at church. When we arrived at church, there is only one boy in church. He was new face, he would join for drum. He told us that this week the worship team leader was H who she is a youth and praying the electric guitar in worship team. Grace also was called from pastor F for playing the piano because this week we don’t have piano player. After a while pastor F, sister H came in church but they didn’t share anything and moved busily each one. It was not easy a little bit feeling to didn’t any explain and didn’t any guide for us so, I could ask about the this morning worship. We almost didn’t have the worship practice because we would have to wait another helper.
While we waited them I sat on chair next pastor F. We started to talk about pastor B who his wife and his daughter. His wife is on vacation with her family in the U.S. She will come back on Saipan about next Friday.

During with talking about something, we got to talk about large size church of Korea. Pastor F said His grandfather used to visit to Korea, at that time his grandfather went to the church that the church is largest church in Korea and meet pastor Cho. He said that he wants to go to Korea and visit to the largest Korea church some time. After I heard his share, I said him that in Korea have a lot of large church and church but a lot of saints are feeling thirst. Continually I shared about our organization working and when I met Jesus the first time, pray… act- It was really simple English expression. After finish my sharing, pastor F shared his life a short. His father was also pastor and he always busy because work of church when he was young. Sometimes he felt an angry by his family life as a Christian.

During share with pastor, I thought that I have wanted to share with some people about it and it was the opportunity that God permitted. It was very short time even we were not able to finish about our share because it was time to start Sunday worship service. After finished Sunday worship service, I met some foreigner at church even I became to share my Gospel a little bit.

It wasn’t perfect to my sharing about the gospel but I give thanks to the Lord and commit to our God. I didn’t know anything but I just remember that God’s promise that a young girl who servant of Naaman’s wife (2 Kings 5) and the priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the Lord (Jos 3)

Oh, my Lord, Lord, prepare me to be a servant of God. Let me be armed with prayer and the glory of the gospel.

Oh~ lovely guys, my class children.

Oh, lovely guys who I served as a teacher-aide in class children.
I became to love them in Jesus’ loves.
Tonight, I thought about each one of them.

R, He has a gold hair and white skin, he is handsome boy when he laughed, and his laugh sounds make me laugh. Y, Her father is Japanese. She has big eyes and cute face and she write a good penmanship but she always become small-minded in math class. Ma, He is a transfer student from Guam. He has brown skin and curly hair (this is his symbol). He likes Michael Jackson so he has known Jackson’s almost song but he is indifferent to study. So, I often told to him that Ma, you have to study hard! Pay attention~, you can do it, I can help you Ma, but he is indifferent anyway. Mar, He must be put mousse on his hair by his mother every morning. He is always neat; he looks a little Asia gentle boy. He always eat lunch slowly, almost same with me. Ar, He likes snack and eating very much but he don’t know how to share with classmates so, I want him to learn about kind and sharing with classmates.-of course It need to everyone to learn how to share with friends. He often burps loudly without saying excuse. L, she looks not only girlish but also spirited. Her parents always greet L with a kiss of love in front of class. She always asks me that “Can I go for water? Can I…?” when she has lunch time. C, He has tall and big eye. He often says “How about me!!” He always wants to answers the every question in all class time so; some classmates dislike him a little bit. T, he is a Korean. When I joined the first day, he said me “I don’t understand her English”. He is a mischievous boy, lost front teeth of two. When he was smile I can see his face that he doesn’t have front teeth and his eye is close. R, she has a tall and long hair. I didn’t know more about her because I thought that she didn’t except about me so I didn’t make to talk with her. J, He was an also transfer students from Philippine one years ago. As I joined the first day, we have a same thing that we couldn’t speak English well and he almost didn’t speak with classmates. We had the play time of silence together for a few days so I thought that we became a good friend so he likes me. But then after a few days I became to know that it was my illusion to think about it because he was adapted himself to his class. ^^; He gave the milk to me almost every day. H, He is an also Korean. He is too small and is very cute but sometimes he spoke to me the bed word and he didn’t pay attention in his class. He is him who one day said me “Am I your dictionary? Why do you ask everything to me?” -.-“ J, He also very cute as well as he has a circle face and circle eye. He is very smart. Last Friday, He became to be winner about phonic speed game in his class. When he got to win about speed game he prayed and after he passed his hand across his forehead I got to know that he is a Catholic. During the last week we studied about Moses who was called from God in bible class time after bible time, a few children started to pray but they were the Catholic. Mt, He looks very health but his voice is very cutely more than his body. He always sat in front of my desk, I call him health boy. He is a nice guy but sometimes danced strange dance when he has a mind full of joy; for example, He was chosen when he rise up hand for a reply that teacher’s questions in class time, his group get a good point. It was really strange dance (sexy dance) I talked him that It was not good. Teacher, she has brown long hair and she was from Minnesota. She is a star to most school children. When most children meet her, they run toward her and gave her a hug. Her class is like a children meeting place because after finished class another grade children come and visit her class. ^^; Sometimes I could talk with her but couldn’t talk a lot or deeply. It gave to feel a sense of loss to me but God lead me God’s perfect plan so that I commit every situation, people, time even myself to God.

Therefore I never move from God’s promise words and his faithful. So, God has made me think that I will not be able to see that God has done great thing for this time therefore I will have to live by only faith.

An unexpexted thing.

On Saturday toward 5 o’clock I was thinking that I would prepare to go to church for practice of the worship team. I met Sarah when I went to the kitchen for I eat some food before going to the church. Sarah told me that Miss L called her and then tonight they have no practice worship dance as well as her though that I should call pastor F.
“It was?” So, I borrowed cell phone to Joseph, I went to Joyful room for was gotten the phone number of pastor F- ‘would we have meeting tonight?’ It also took me about few minute to think for called to pastor F.

I called pastor F and he said that he didn’t know about it so, if we didn’t have practice time, we would meet tomorrow early morning but he would check about it after call me. Toward 6 o’clock, until this time didn’t call from pastor F, I thought that maybe it didn’t have to practice tonight.
So, I should have thought that “what will do me?” but for a little while- already passed 6 o’clock- pastor F called me, he said we had practice tonight. I’ve gone to church for worship team practice without Sarah.

I arrived the church I met Pastor F and another saints, pastor F said that he also thought that tonight don’t have practice so, he had another plan. Finally, we started the worship practice almost same time as usual – It is 6 o’clock every Saturday but we always started almost at 7 o’clock. The singers change every week but I don’t know how them change singers every week.
I would like to practice and pray enough – especially I have not known songs- but they look a little bit busy.

Next day, on Sunday morning we went to the church. When I joined worship team for Sunday worship service, leader of team asked the opening prayer very carefully, even him told that you could speak prayer in Korea. For a few minute, I was embarrassed a little bit in the worship team because I haven’t think about it until this time but after a few minute I prayed for very short time in English -I couldn’t think anything; I had a blank in my head.

During the worship time I became to think about it- an unexpected thing. Finally, I thought that always have to be prepared an unexpected thing for my Lord Jesus Christ. It isn’t meaning that I want to speak well in English in front of some people. I will be never embarrassed an unexpected thing in Jesus’ love.
How do I prepare for an unexpected thing in my Lord Jesus Christ? What will do I prepare?

Then God led me in this verse, Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be-self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed 1Pe1:13

Stand firm in the word of God!

The priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the Lord stood firm on dry ground in the middle of the Jordan, which all Israel passed by until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground (Jos 3:17)

Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not vain. (1Co 15:58)

Time fries. How fast week it was!
I can’t remember about this week. It was so fast!
It was just like three days for me to be this week.
I clearly started this week in the grace of the God’s promise word but after started this week I have forgotten the God’s promise word.
(but I’m not sure that did I really forget the God’s word?)
In the middle of the week it came in to my think that how come I can’t speak English as time goes on?

I don’t want to write about my feeling at my blogger but when I thought about this week, I couldn’t think another something even I couldn’t express another thing.
I got to think about How come my heart had almost slipped?
What was the problem?

I have received the grace of God through the massage and the word of God meditation everyday but I didn’t have the time for preparation and prayer in the concrete. I was too lazy. (It is mountain for me to have to go over. = I have to obey about it.)
Of course I was able to rise from the loss of heart as soon as and was woken up in my heart through the word of God! (“until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground! The priests had to stand firm in the middle of the Jordan”)
Until when do I have to stand firm? It is an unbecoming for question as a Christian.

After I was clear minded, I got to have a short time to serve our class children and teacher.
I have to keep going toward the word of God and I will pray for this time more and more in the concrete.

O, Lord, let me praise your mercy and faithful all day long.
Let me stand firm on your promise word all day long.
O, Lord, teach me that something to obey in the concrete.
Let me hold firm your promise word until the day that complete your perfect plan.
In Jesus name I pray. A-men.

One thing that I have to do...

I hoped one thing that became to the praise the Lord through the English gospel song like Korean gospel song when I served as a worship team. Even though I hoped that life of Jesus Christ would be flowing away into our church saints’ lives through our joining with them more and more. Because I am buys reading the English lyrics when I was practicing the worship and worshiping. It became my prayer and I was sure that God is really doing now!

We usually have practice from P.M 6 to almost P.M 8 every Saturday but it was too difference to come on to church each other. We started the practice after short prayer and they had gone quickly after practicing, sometime without saying bye. I thought that is it the local culture?
Then I have practice that found and listen to this week worship song by myself at home about for a two or three hours. Because I resolved to practice the worship song after served the worship on last week. (I discovered that I have never tried to do myself best everything for perfect. (The perfect is only for the glory of God.)

Yesterday during the Sunday worship service pastor proclaimed just powerful preaching toward church. I remain could not understand about the almost preaching but I was able to hear the important word that just need to me by God’s mercy. It was really proclaiming of God.
When I am among the great grace of God, suddenly pastor asked that came on the worship and came on ones who wanted praying in front of the pastor. Then pastor and some people started the praying and we sang to the Lord. The praying and singing were continued. I prayed that let me praise the Lord with all my heart and let the glory of the Lord flows from my heart when I was singing. Then I was able to praise to the Lord irrespective of the English in grace of Jesus.

God has made me think about a young girl who servant of Naaman’s wife (2 Kings 5) when I went to evening worship service. The young girl who taken captive from Israel was not known about her name but she was used for the history of God.

God has made me think that we joined in G are like the young girl so One thing that I have to do is just worshiping God like young girl of Israel in G.

God's permission is the best!

I praise the Lord who remain faithful toward us even though we are faithless.

Today is on Thursday, Aug 6.

It pass away four days to serve GCA elementary school as a helper. Hallelujah!!
God has done! God will continually do it! A-men!

It became a good news for me to don't go to school tomorrow for WMM special meeting. Hu~
(-Of course, I got to love all of our class childern and our class teacher. They are really lovely, so it was a pity that I don't meet them at school tomorrow.)

It was like very long time that four days.
Our second children is very bright! There are two Korean childern and two transfer students who come from Philippine and come from Guam and the rest of the students were GCA students. I became to hope about them who two Korean children and two transfer students when I got to know them Becaues I thought that they were able to help and wait me. :)
So, I said unreserved H who one among a them that you could be a teacher for me, you had to help me because you were Korean even me also Korean and you looked kind. l0l
But after a fwe time, I realized that I don't have to another hope toward children and teacher even any situation.

For a few days, I felt that was a tired too much by both my body and my soul.
I was discouraged about those who our class childern and teacher too small reaction and I felt about a English barrier. It was like it to meet another high mountain of English.
I've talked and thought about I will trust in my Lord! so I will pray for every circumstances but
I was talking about our class's any circumstances even I was thinking that if I served a kindergarten, If.... If... even though it looked well for them who our WSA families.
I couldn't give thanks to the Lord about everything, I was a very tired. -.-"

God who remain faithful and never give up toward us reminded me that God's permission is the best throughout four days. I have to only love and serve them who our class children and teacher in grace of God without reference to my English grade.
Therefore I think that 'what can I help for them today?' even though 'how do God wants me to serve for them? '

I confess to myself that God's permission is the best! It's enough because it is God's permission. I hope that finally God will has done grace thing. A-men.

If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for hecannot disown himself. 2Ti 4:13

I will be looking forward!!!!

I praise the Lord who is always giving the oppertunity of God's grace to me through the Cross.

I once again realized that I have been living in our God's prefect grace and although I can't recount God's planned for me through all of the times in WSA. Praise the Lord!!

I was scared a litter bit when missionary Park who our WSA team leader left Saipan a few days ago night because she got me to strength for a long time in the Lord.

Of course I know that surely God will do great things for the glory of the Lord through us who praise the glory of the Gospel so I was quickly able to get up from the scare.

Now It's again to start to this semester in God's grace and I looking forward that God will do amazing things for this semester.

God said to me that Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever(ps118:1) through the Bible.
God wants me not to forget that God loves endures forever toward us! and I have to always give thanks to the Lord among the every circumstance. Hallelujah!!
(Anyway!! Oh~ I have to wirte about I served Grace church worship service!!)

Yes! I got to serve as a worshipper of Grace church with Sarah.
We went to Grace church last night for practice of worship service.
I was looking forward too much to join with them for worship to God and serve the church even though I can speak English litter bit. ^^;(but I can sing to the Lord in English! Praise the Lord!)

Saturday 6 p.m, I was able to a few singer and musicians.
It was different that I hoped for something but It was thanksful time to me.
It's not specially to meet them the first time because we almost didn't glad to each other.
I imagined that actually there is something specially time(?)(e.g introduce myself or greeting time) but we exchanged a light greetings each other and we started the practice about worship song.

While I practiced the worship song I got to think about the time that we were practicing the English phonice. I was not able to sing with fluency because It's very fast song to me but I was able to be a pronounce correctly. lol~~~~~~~
Thoes who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy(ps 126:5) a-men!

And then, Today I had a great time through everytime that worship service of Grace church.

The faith

I went to Good news church for all nations prayer
with walk prayer team and church saints last night.
We prayed by Ehpesians chapter 2 at 8 o'clock until 10 p.m.
After I prayed for Egyptian with a few saints at 3 a.m until 5 a.m.

All the while I stayed in church I was meditatied about the faith.
What is God pleased toward us?
What does God see(consider) in us?

God consider in our heart and God consider our faith that God all things are possible because God is almighty.
And We don't have anything power that the prayer is able to answer from God but
It is only God's grace to recived an answer to the prayer of us.
It only come from the faith.

I will always have hope, I will praise you more and more.
O, Lord! Let me praise you more and more in you all day long! A-men.

Dear my Japanese friend Amy

Hello~ Amy!
How are you?!
I'm good!



Did you hope that will I send a e-mail to you?
uh~ of course I hoped to send a E-mail to you
when we exchanged a E-mail address with each other.
(but I was a little afraid becuase It will take me a long time to write a E-mail in English.)
So, It's really God is doing now what I write a E-mail in English.)

Did you arrived in Tokyo well?

We hoped that we were able to see your team again that before your team returned to Tokyo.
So It's very sorry for us to wasn't able to meet to your team again but we was satisfied that God's perfect time and God's plan. Halleluljah!

How is weather in Tokyo?
Saipan's sun is as strong as ever Saipan's ocean is as beautiful as ever but anymore It' was raining too much in Saipn.
It seem was Korea's the rainy season.

When will you return to your home?
We are going to Korea at the beggining of the week on Aug.
So I think It's very important time to all us ann then I am praying and attending for about it.
I think It's same for you to come to the finish of Ym DTS. Isn't it?
I wonder what God has done something to you through all time of YM DTS.

wow~ It's spent long time to writed a E-mail up to here. God has done! ^^;

I was thought while writing a E-mail, "How did I write a letter?"
"long time ago, Did I ues to write a letter well to frinds of mine?"
Recently I almost don't write a letter and now It was able to write a Email barely to you in English.
wow!!

Do you remember what I prayed that I wanted to get Japanese Christian friend and after a while I meet you and your brother!
I'm sure It's God's plan and gift to us.
Well, I is hope that through our meet God will do something to it in Jesus Christ.
So I'm very happy and thankful now.
Although It's very hard and very poor for me to write a letter in English, It's my expression of fait my God who answered my prayer.
So I'm very happy now.
Hallelujah!~~~~~~~~~~~

In addition to have to some letter for you but I hope next time.
I want to share my Gospel and another something and I will wait for your answer.
Thank you~ and see you~ in Jesus Christ.

God blessed you~

your friend Joy.

It's special day!

A few day ago we went to YM base because we were invited by YM for dinner.
It came on the out-reach team of Japan YM DTS at YM sipan.
I had no special expect about we went to YM because our teacher Judy said
"Would we do come back hear to eat dinner early?"
So, I went to there to have a light heart.
When we arrived at YM base, there were many yung things, some children and YM missionaries.
The team who the first time left from our house was talking with them to already arrived at YM. 'Oh, dear! Do not we just eat dinner?'

Anyway, we had to fellowship each other before have dinner.
They were composed of people from various country.
I met young Japanese when we exchang grettings with a few people.
They names are Tim and Amy.
They were in a family and a forth-generation Japan-American.
I came in to my thought that I prayed for getting a Japanese Christian friend by pastor in Rota while we were talking about something.

Oh! I was very surprised when I suddenly remembered that I pray about it.
I don't to be a quick answered about it even though I praye for it.
(Oh, but my Lord, you know in my heart that I pray to it eith all my heart.)

It's so~~~~ excite to me.
Since then I explained to them about God has done to me though I couldn't speack English well.

Halleujah!!!
We talked about the life of the Christian each other, although I almost couldn't understand.

I is hoped that God will do something through this meeting.

God has doen.

I spoke by telephone to 사모님 Kim hea sim this afternoon.
She lives in 여수 Korea, her husband is a pastor that has a lovely four daughter.
I met her when I used to be in a branch Gwang Ju of WMM.

We used to pray by the words of God in Yeosu on every Wednesday.
She was surprised when I called to her and she was very gald to me.
She told me about it(something to) God has don.
It was changed them who they used to pray with us in Yeosu.
They are attending the Ips(Intercessory Prayer School) now and they are going to go to a prayer trip.
wow!!! Halleluah. God has done!
I was very glad to heard the news because they were been hard to follow the words of God in the world.
They wanted to know the words of God and allthing about the Lord but they've had a problem a lot. We've prayed together and shared something.

Sister Kim said to me "Missionary Cho! I missed you and we are a fruit of God by your(you and your partner) serveice and prayer of tears. Thank you so much!"
"We don't forget you! we all joined together constantly in prayer!"

wow! When we've searved that we sometimes were very tired and hard also we were very weak and young. :)
Really! really! God has done!
we only stood the Cross and there.
I couldn't anything!
Wow! It's amazing grace to me and us.

yet,

I spent great time on last week.
wow! There were a lot of things, we were very happy but busy
and then we was filled power of Gospel and with a lot of foods in our heart and our a stomach while we were live together a missionary Kim and his wife for four days.
At that time, there were Gospel Revival at Good news church and a missionary Kim was a speaker of assembly.

On last week, there were so many things but when I'm writing abot it, I couldn't thought anything because my thought stoped that the moment I wrote in English about it.

So,now I write blog as one myself. :)
I've stood in front of sea of Tiberias(Jone 21); It mean was I stood the words of God and Cross.
God lighted up my heart through His words from a few days ago.
It was about I am prideful.

Lunch

When I was bring trained at World Moblie Missions,
one day I used to meet my sister at Meong Dong after for a long time.
I was very happy and glad.
When I didn't know the Gospel I didn't use to have a good time with my sister.
So I was very glad to meet my sister.
We had a lunch at spaghetti restaurant and we had a good time.
At that time I was being trained about faith finance.
I used to pray for the promise of my sister.
I used to want to pay for our haveing lunch time and I used to want to had a meaningful time.
In my memory was I wasn't supplied some money oonly a fare.
Today, I received a topic "Lunch" while our class.
Then I remembered it.
I shared my topic but it was not easy.
I think I should practice English conversation and study hard.
I think I should concentrate on study English.
I must study hard for the glory of God.
Oh~~ I know that. I know....
yes, Lord. I have to!! study hard.

lighthoues

Yesterday, When we hading a dinner time,
I heard that missionary Kim is going to come here naxt Saturday.
wow! It's wonderful!! It is very good news to us!!
The great pleasure is come to our heart.
In the kitchen was filled with expectation.
After that we went to the church.
When I was going to church, I thought about when I first met missionary Kim.

I met missionary Kim an our church assembly since 2002.
At that time I have gone the church but I didn't know power of Cross and
about everything of Jesus. So I always was insecurity while I was going to church.
I didn't know about the life. My lifed darkness.
It was like a ship to lose oneself in the sea of darkness.

Since summer, 2002 I was hauled into church assembly by my pastor.
So I didn't expeted anything. (But God was expected toward me for a long time ago!!!!!!!!)
While our church assembly, I heve knew it throught missionary Kim.
He was a speaker of assembly for a three days.
I heard a power of Gospel and unfailing love of God to us.


After that time my life changed everything.
You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy
(Ps 30:11)


And now, I am here. It is the power of God.
I often thought that Missionary Kim is like a lighthouse to my life and a lot of people.

So he subjected them to bitter labor; they stumbled, and there was no one to help. Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men.(pS 107:12~15)



I thanks for the Lord. I will thanks for the Lord forever.
I must be thanks for the Lord forever and
now I will become a lighthouse to people of all nastion like Kim the servant of God.

Missionary Kim come soon on Saipan.

visit

Yesterday, Paul visited our classroom.
we heard to his story that he recived to grace of God by he was during the training GNA.
During the his shared, I was happy and joy.
And I felt awesome of God, love of God and I found the Lord.
I thought "the visit = It is the Lord!!!"
Long time ago , I heard to one story.
The story was a shoemaker story.
He met Jesus, visit of Jesus.

Jesus said to me " I visistd to you everyday. Did you know? Did you find me?"
wow, It is the Lord!
I thought the people, Rang, Angelina, Joses, Dave, children of Flame Tree Festival, Paul, Judy, WSA companions, girl of street ... sky, ocean, birds....
The people by the met on Saipan.

The Lord said through Paul ; life of faith.
"Don't prayer was don't belived God"
I prayer everyday but "How am I prayer now?"
I thougt about all thing for faith life the belived in him.

Paul visit Jesus' visit to me.

I am branches

I am the vine; you are the branches, If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5

The verse is promise word of WSA in april.
When I saw the word our class I heard the heart of God.

"Oh, my lovely daughter, listen to me and remember me.
I am the vine of you and you are the branches."
"You are branches!! I want to remember the fact you! don't be afraid you
and you need only to be still in me"
"Yes, Lord."
You are my Vine! I am branches of you.
I can do nothing without you.
I always remember it and I will don't forget the fact.

a-men

april 20, 2009

I read the phonics textbook while walked to school in the morning.

It was a Phonics chart 10.

At that time the sun says, "This is very sunny today" but I keep on walk and practice for phonice.

when I am almost arrived I read this text.

"In six days God made the world and all that is in it......

He made the moon and stars to give light by night.

He made all the birds that fly in the sky and all the fish that swim in the sea.

Each flower and tree is the work of His hands. Big or small, God made them all"

wow!

I am surprised. God made them all 'I kenw' and God give strength of life and all thing.

God made the birds that He give the birds what fly in the sky.

wow! I meditate on the God that He made people and me and He give for fly and sky(strength and I needs to live all thing).

My heart answerd to the Lord "Yes! Lord! I recived."

I thougt that "the Lord, what are you say to me?

At that I am tired why I heve'nt homework and memorize a State in America.

I known that heart of God but... on one side I talk to the Lord "I know but..."

But my Lord are quite.

And...

when the chapel time Paster Fred said "God's gife are good and perfect."

I sorry my Jesus becaus I am answer later and thank for my creator to you.

Thank you. a-men.

The words siad...

I learned a eight verse by heart this week. "Praising the Lord!"
It was homework but wasn't homework. ^^;
Of coures, it's not easy to memorize for me but the 'praising the Lord' a verse was
gave pleasure, strength and hope of my heart.
I like to discover the words of the Lord.
Psalms 145:17 this word was meet long time ago.
When I find out the word that I get know for the Lord.
The words of LORD, It have been changed my soul and my life of faith.
The knowledg of God and the obey of word was gave chacge of life.
I am sure that the power of words because I have learn by experience.

The LORD is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made(Ps 145:17)
He is the Rock his ways are perfect and all his ways are just (Dt 32:4)

all, all, all...
his ways, all he has made... righteous and loving toward


The words said to me "joy, Do you believe that all his ways are perfect, righeous and loving?"
The words of GOD break my heart.
I remember things gone by I was walk in darkness.
"Just that time? and just this time?"and
I was said "Yes, Lord, anytime, always, you are ways perfect and righteous"

I am walking for the his way by all that I am.

Chit - Chat?

think-

If someone ask me why do you live,
I will say to them "I live for glory of the day".

After the college Youth Retreat I often thought of bygone days
that when i first meet Jesus and the thing God did to me.
It is miracle that the mercy of God.
And I has thought "why do live, joy?" "what do you want(hope)?"

changed.

When I hear the gospel, It gave me free and delight.
The good news was "God made me"-"you are mine, you are in Christ Jesus"-
It really Good news to me. Thereafter my life changed.
I was discard thing what I loved- ofcourse It was noting great.
I was agreed the confession of one withness what "He is no fool who gives what
he cannot keep to agin that which he cannot lose"-Jim Elliot
In Christ Jesus life, It very novel.

But one day I got it into one's head that
"Let live a humdrum; it mean, Let you live that you wanted life.
It's a temptation but I win the word of God-
Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure. (1 Jhon 3:3)

and It is a reasone that I live - The day

and..

Today, During the easter worship, I received the the word of God.
"If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are to be pitied more than all mad"(1 Co 15:19)
If the dead are not raised "Let us eat and drink, for tomarroe wedie"

Therefor my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing more you.
Always give yourselves fully to the work of the LORD
because you know that your labor in the Lord is not vain.(1 Co 15:19)

The song of Joy

The LORD received my(we) sang.
"I will live my life for you!" 나의 일생을 주만 위해 살리라!
Because we have "The day- Easter"

What a beautiful Easter it is!

p.s Ofcourse It is a need to make every effort.^^; Joy run Joy! for 'the day!'

The word of God, giving me...

I could not read the Bible for long time.
Because I was busy and have not 'rest of heart'(Oh~ Lord, forgive me. ^^;)
So I took time that erad the Bible on wednesday. It was very happiness time.
I read the 2 Perter chapter all that.
At that time I felt truching my heart from the Lord.
Let me attention to verse what 'knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord' and 'make every effort'
The Bible said 'the knowledg of God' give me(us) what grace and peace and everything we need for life.
And "make every effort" what to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him.
Before the Bible stay, It gavepeace of heart in my mind.
I will often make every effort stay the word of God because It give me what 'riviving the soul', 'giving joy to the heart' and giving light to the eyes.(Psalms 19:7~8)

I love the word of God.
Thank for Lord.

Grace...

Today I remember that 'The Greas of GOD' and when I was orphan(without God - when I'm siiner).

Long time ago, I looked blind bartimaeus and woman caughted in the act of adultery.
It was walk in darkness and wwere dead in my life- sad, pain, fear...
But, now I praise to God!, I see Him(His glory-cross-), dream of 'the day' and I shall not be in want. Wow! It is Grace!

Oh, the clock says "12:21"PM
Sleep in the bed time, Joy~~~
-.-"

Joy can write the Blog very well.
I will write English complete sentence. ^^;

It was gave pain to me.

I saw the movie last night with my familys(SWA, GNSC).
It is "Slumdog millionaire" in India slums people story.
After I saw it, felt pain and very sad. pain....
When I after obey who called of God, i made a resolution to doan't watched to movie.
Because I were separate from Christ, I was movie mania that it is gave my thought has great influence(it was sins that Utopian and ignored of the LORD), and I naver do not that give my mind to Satan and I am a new creation"the old had gone, the new has come!" (2 Cor 5:17). It was gave a present to my LORD, but is at that time my familys without saw movies, I saw that. It was like a yesterday...
List night movies very shocked to me.
Already I knew that India backgrand and all nations that come from our sins for pain.
one by one scenes that recorded the in my hart, in my head. IT is pain, sad.
Lose one's life(glory of God life) who dead in our transgression and sins people that like as heared that their are groaning.
I saw movie that distressing scenesin very cruel in people(a childen) life, and I remember for heavenly Father.
And I cryed that lose for the glory of God people and almighty God.

I thought that all nations peopel and suffer persecution church.

And i thought and made a deep impression that I hear "you have come to royal position for such a time as this?(Esther 4:14)"

I likes sins of me.

thanks for Judy and with my familys, and that time, too.

I pray for the nations people and The day.

O you who hear prayer, to you all men will come. Psalm 62:2

Joy miss her

I have 1 sister, 1 young brother in my family.
My sister's name is Mi yeon Cho.
She is a single 29 year old nurse that good heart.
She lives in Su Won, with my mother.
She is like me but maybe I don't know her very well .
It is very sad but I love her.
To day I think of my sister and very miss her.
So I pray for her.

renewing of my mind

transformed by renewing of your mind Ro 12:2

a-men.

today I learn a verse by heart that It is scursive test.
gallatians 2:20

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.
The life I live in the body I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave
himself for me. a-men.

Are you ready to move on?

joy said: YES! I ready to move on.

renewing of my mind; I start over again for glory of God!

s t a r~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~t!

The moon says....

The clock in the room says 12:34 AM.
It is time to go to bed.
The moon says "Good night~ joy~", but I can not sleeping. Oh~ Father!(forget me?loves me~ help me~ wisdom me~^^;)
My life was changed that day and night.
It was a difficult but I don't find a soultion to it.(I get the haning of haggard face life. oh~ sunshin e my face*.*)
But I hope the life is normal-normal mean; I have enjoyed, hard and not chaged the day and night English study.
Joy says " The moon, wake up~ go! all night with me~^^;"

I like...

I like to take a walk.
I often to took a walked in around.
I was thinking what so many thing that Person, friends, my job, trifing things to take a walk.
I want take a walk in beach road that without think.
But it is difficult in this time.
And I will take a walk of English ocean with my LORD.

Jesus said..

"your attitude should be the same as that of Chirsr Jesus"(Php 2:5)

I like excuse but He likes misunderstanding.
I like boasts but He likes held in contempt.
I like riches but He likes poverty.
I like seen but He likes unseen.
I like receive but He likes give.

Jesus said "your attitude should be the same as that of Chirsr Jesus"

Amen my Lord.
Christ lives in me.

Thank you.

thank you, my Lord.
all of time... It is present.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. ps 23:1

pray for all nations yesterday?

we have practice in English at today night.
Grace is ask me:
"How many time did you pray for all nations yesterday?"
*.*~~~
I answerd " I'm not thang pray for all nations yesterday"
(*I didn't prayerd for all nations yesterday.)
At that time Mi-ae said "Bed!~~~................"(she's do mischief)
Oh~ wake up Joy. and try to prasie Lord!
Oh~ Father, help me!

The answer

The clock in the room says, seven fifteen AM.
It is time to go to the school.
I was walk to school today morning whit Becky.
The cloud says, "This is raining soon" and for a time it stard raining.
But we does not have a umbrella.
Becky is pray to the God.
"Please, stop the raining, Father"
It has stopped raining and we continued walk.
One car, we pick up at school.
I thought that answerd.
It is different that from the my thought.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts.
my thoughts higher than your thoughts. (Isa 55:8,9)

I will fix on my eyes.

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus! (Heb 12:2)
Fix your thoughts on Jesus (Heb 3:1)

What I heard that?
What I see a that?
What I thinks about that?

Let I Fix my eyes on my LORD. and His promise.

Let! Let! let! And fix! fix! fix!
Where is it?
In my Jesus, my Lord.

My potter's hand

We are sang 'The potter's hand' today in the morning.
"I give my life to the potter's hand"
Long time ago I said "My, Lord your my potter. I give my life to potter's hand"
But as soon as I said again "Why did you make me like this?"(Rom 9:20)
or "I will do not anyting but that" "It's very difficult".... I has a blame.

What a stupid idea!
But now here then I confess to "I give my lofe to the potter's hand. O my Lord. I am belong to you. You mark me. His purpose...
May be it is mean patience, obedience and trust in Him.

Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy James 5:10,11

The seller of fruit store

There is a fruit store near my home.
The store seller is Chinese.
I want to know they. ^^;
The store is go straight toward the 99' super market from Judy's house.
The fruit store is between the 99' super market and oil station.
A few days ago I prayer for the they are salvation.
I hope to know that they are in Jesus Crist.
Saipan was a few people that Chinese, Filipino, Thai forger...
I want to thay are believe in God.

Blassed is Greac!

Dear Holy brothers Grace, who share with in the heavenly calling

Happy birthday Grace.^^;
And we(I) thanks God who created you for His Grace.
I you thinks so. May be Grace said " Of course!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I thuoght His mercy that I saw your birthday.
We are recived a gift of God something special.
My friend Grace! faced the LORD with me and let us exalt his name together.
Till the day...!

Blessing,

Joy.

It is my beautiful day!

The seas hanve lifted up, O LORD.
The seas have lifted up their voice;
the seas have lifed up their pounding waves. (Paslms 93:3)

All day long the seas have lifted up their voice an more over came to me.
I decide to "Move on!" "and "I am not going to give up!"
But my heart has a fallen.
I strength is nearly gone. (I got strength)

At that time, came in to the a lot of thought where on my heart.
"Is it possible?"
I thought what "Are they know that I don't know all thing(Eng---)"
I stop a head.
"Are you foolish? you didn't it." it is a mistake...
You don't no!, can God did it? God can do it! but you can't do that! you are alone! "

oh~~~no!"It's pounding wavese. -.-(It is enemy sound...)

Of course I has got a His promiss and confidence that "GOD did It"
And my Lord said "I will be with you"(Exodus 3:12)at yesterday.

I heart was grieved.(Psalms 73:12)
.
.
.

At this time navertheless, He didn't teached me.
He tryed to thought. His promise.
He repeted to me. "I wll be with you. I am who I am"

Mightier than the thunder of the great waters, mightier than the breakers of the sea-
the LORD on high is mighty. (psalms 93:4)

I remember that "GOD is an AWESOME GOD, Lover my soul.
My closest Friend.......

I wll prais LORD my GOD.
"Oh, what a beautiful day it is!"
GOD have delivered me from the depths of the grave. (Psalms 73:12)
It is my beautiful day!

"yes my LORD, YOU will be with me. I don't forget it. thanks you!"

p.s but be unchanged in actuality. lack of study,lack of time, piled up homework,
my lack of ability, stoped head...
Only I get it HIS promise. wow~~~ help me, my Lord!!